my so-called Sweet 17

April 4th, 2008.

friday.
today sucks like shit. honestly mannnn.
the moment i woke up, i was freakin depressed weh.
idk why.
but having the thought that tomorrow is my 17th birthday,
&& not having a birthday party & not having the chance to go out either, made me feel more miserable.
gahh. how i wish i can be my own mother :D
haha. so there.
i went to school.
the first person i saw was fara.
she said, 'nana, tomorrow!' i was like, 'haha yeahh'.
fake a smile. *sighs
the day went so wrong. i was fkin moody.
well i did laugh, but it was just not there.
i did smile, but it was all fake.
i was pretending im happy, the fact was that im not.
not at all.
i was whining to fyna all about it. gawd.
sorry babe. you had to hear all those.
she tried to cheer me up. tell stories & all.
made me laugh. but then, haih. idk how to put it in words.
i told them so many times, 'im officially depressed today'.
haha. such a word.

msg dgn bobo that evening.
why eh? because tomorrow is my birthday thats why u msg me izzit?
hm. yeah.
received msgs from iliy.
she wishes me happy birthday.
aww. ur just soooo sweet girl. thx so much x)

at night, pegi tuition kat kasturi.
yeah saw my friends wtv sume.
i was excited because the day before that,
i did kecoh to all of them that saturday is my birthday.
haha. some did wish me happy birthday even belum lagi. :)

at home, sms dgn some ppl. dont ask who.
but, yeah. some did made me happy.
some didnt. still, dont ask who.

April 5th, 2008

the moment the clock ticks 0000hrs, wahhh.
sms sume masuk! haha.
korang gle fkin comel!
the first person was fara. tq so much babe. ily :)
then, que. haha. u made me laugh! yeee kita tueee. happy? :P
next was mira. tq so much aw mira :)
then bobo. yeah, happy besday saje. hm.
next was shakir, then fyna, then fazlin, then farhan.
fyi, sume sms. no one yg call. ngerti? uh.

i was suprised like shit weh.
the one person yg i gle mengharap to do something special for me today, didnt do anything. at all.
instead, treated me mcm im nothing to him, & he's nothing to me.
he called me last night. yeah okayy.
i was happy. fkin happy he called me.
i was lying on my bed that time.
so bangun la, duduk, to answer his call. but then, die reject.
i was like, whatttt? okayy fine. nvm.
bls dulu msg org laen.
then got his msg.
i started crying. was that how u wish ur girlfriend's birthday?
was that how u treat ur girlfriend on her birthday?
it was HER FREAKIN BIRTHDAY!
does it even matter to youuu?
do you even bother?
da la perli. ckp byk sgt org call nk wish happy besday eh?
gahh. wtv. mcm kne tikam gle dalam woh, menusuk kalbu gle.
it was only 12.20am. so much for a happy birthday. thx for making my day.

i stay up late on my birthday. haha.
freakin late. until 4.30am. gilaa.
ngantuk yg amat! x)
why? dont ask. i just did.
yeah, so i woke up around 8 something.
mom knocked my door at 7. i heard she put something on my desk.
but, i was too sleepy, so i didnt look.
the moment i got up from bed, i saw something, wrapped with a red ribbon.
aww. mommy, thanks. :))

took my shower wtv sume.
i went downstairs. hoping that anyone would wish me 'happy birthday'.
dengan bangganya, no one did. fcuk.
even my youngest brother, syakir yg gle smngted about my birthday,
buat bodo mcm bangang.
okayy, gle damn sdey. so fine.
i decided to stay downstairs for a while.
dgn harapan, mom & dad would go to the kitchen & wish me lah at least en?
hah! they didnt. no one did! shit shit shit.
abang & adik ariff still x bangun lagi. so fineeeee wtv.
i locked myself in my room.

buat la kerja seni dgn ipod gle kuat dkt telinga.
i usually do this when im 'not in the mood'.
it did work. haha.
till it was lunch time, turun bwh lmbt gle. mls.
saket jiwa dgn sume orang.
still, kat bwh, no one wish me.
except, my maid. WHAT THE HELLLLLL?
ha. bodo gle.

then cam, da abes lunch, kurung diri dlm bilik lagi.
gle fkin bosan. what to do.
haih. so, continue doing my seni.
GAWD! masa tgh sedey² ni jugak laa idea dtg mencurah weh.
gle lawaaa la! haha. bangga bangga :DD

orang call, jawab.
orang sms, jawab jgak. yeah.
dlm bilik. sampai my ipod da nk abes bateri!
betapa gle 'dengar' ipod tu. haha.
radio bukak, ipod kat telinga.
okay, ayat keling xD

oh. then arif sms. thanks taw. tak sangka you ingat ow.
lepas tu, shy. thanks yeah :))
then syahir. aww. ko gle sweet weh. okayy, kne tempek ari isnin! xD
next, isk wish. aww, thanks. you're so sweet it makes my teeth hurts :)

mlm tu, continue buat seni lagi. yeah.
the whole day i did seni sajeee.
coz, tade mood nk belajar. tade mood nk buat bnd laen.
so, buat seni. colour² best :D

masa dinner, daddy told me, 'kakak, jap lagi kita keluar pegi minum dkt starbucks okay?'.
i was like, wahh gle best!
but x tunjuk la. haha. i nodded.
stay in my room lagi.
tunggu smpi da nk 11. bila masa nk pegi starbucks niiiii?
i told my brother to ask daddy, he said pegi esok je.
fineeeee wtv! ugh. saket jiwa yg amat.

wtv, i had to see someone dkt starbucks that time.
farhan tunggu dari pkl 8, die ckp.
i got there around 11. wahh.
pegi la jmpe die. sorry.
haha. siann kamu! ish.

hm. kesimpulan sume bnd alah ni,
my birthday sucks like shit.
being 17 is like hell. ugh!
wtv. orang² yang diharapkan akan buat something for me,
didnt do anything at all.
orang laen yg lebih plak. to those ppl yg made me happy,
thanks so much. appreciate it much weh.
sayangg gle. :)

2 comments

que said...

babe, omg.
hm, well. i knw u're tough. tougher than me. =)
happy belated plak. hehe.
yg tepat2 dah kn. belated plak.;P
heheh.
oh, tepung. telur, choc chips. okay. ;P
hahah. yes, da tue. mwahahahah. XP
q kn pelawak sejati! :DD
lovelvoe!

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